“sadness or displeasure caused by the nonfulfillment of one’s hopes or expectations”
That is a word I am sure we can all relate to these days. I bet if I asked each of you if you have experienced ANY disappointment in the last 3 months, the answers would overwhelmingly be “yes”.
I bet if I asked each of you what was your #1 disappointment, you would all have a very different answer.
COVID…….. CORONA VIRUS……MITIGATION………SHELTER IN PLACE
Who would have ever dreamed that those 4 phrase words could change the life as we knew it and turn it totally upside down and spit it out into a slurry of disappointments, fear, anger, and maybe, if we are honest, a little bit of anxiety.
For me, deep down, I think I secretly thought that if my heart was right with Christ, if I was living right, doing the right things for the right reasons in the right time, I would never fall victim to such words. I mean, after all, if I am living for Jesus what is there to be disappointed about, right? Let’s be real, being a Christian means we get a free pass from such things, right? Life should be perfect…. because if Jesus casts out all fears, then I should never be afraid, right?
Yeah…..NO! That’s not exactly how it goes.
Because I am human…made of flesh and blood. I am an imperfect person living in an imperfect world.
I am living in a world full of overwhelming disappointment and discouragement right now. I am surrounded it by it every day. I see it on the news, I hear it on the radio, I find it in the closed businesses, I read it on the prayer request pages, and I hear the stories from my friends who are suffering.
I am Surrounded.
There is no escape.
I find myself now being worried about things I have ZERO control over. Why do I do that? If I KNOW I have ZERO control over a situation, then why do I waste on minute of my life worrying about it?
I don’t know why I do it….habit, perhaps. Or maybe it’s just the flesh fighting against my spirit because my spirit KNOWS who is in control of this very out of control situation we live in these days. The struggle is real….the battle between good and evil….flesh and spirit….control and surrender.
Some days are harder than others. Some days it is easy to curl up on the couch, pop on Netflix and tune the whole world out, other days, not so much.
This is one of those days…..
Of all the things going on with the COVID crisis, and the shelter in place, and the mandatory masks, and the cancellations of well…just about everything, this week has been especially hard on me.
This week was to be an EPIC week in the life of our Ministry. We had made arrangements to bring our Honduran Pastor, his family and The Freedom Band to the United States and we were set to embark on a 2 state, 4 city fundraising Evangelism Tour. We spent months and months planning, arranging for Churches to host the band, make travel plans from Honduras to the USA for a team of 6 people. Hours and hours were spent on the plans this week. This was to be an EPIC week of sharing Jesus, sharing our ministry, as well as serving as one of our biggest fundraising events that would have brought in enough funding to see us through to the end of 2020.
In an instant.
Or is it?
I had to look no further than Gods Word to see what God had to say about how I was feeling and what His thoughts were. I was immediately taken to the story of Mary and Martha, who, in the book of John 11:1-6, you can read, sent for Jesus when their brother Lazarus was dying.
Lazarus was getting worse. Jesus still hadn’t shown up. I know they had to be asking themselves: “did He get my message??” “why isn’t He here, yet?”
Lazarus lay dying.
And they waited for Jesus to come. He didn’t show up.
What the?? He didn’t show upt?? Who does that?? What kind of friend is that??
Disappointment! Major Disappointment!!
He finally showed up…4 days later! Can you imagine the look on Martha’s face? I can see it now…I bet she was fire hot red in the face, arms flailing, ready to beat him senseless.
You know the story from here, Jesus spoke Lazarus back to life….a MIRACLE occurred…people saw with their own eyes. Here is the cool thing, it was in HIS time. Not Martha’s time, not Mary’s time, and certainly not Lazarus’ time.
Jesus knew what he was doing. It wasn’t Game Over.
If Jesus had come when Martha called for Him, there would’ve been no stretching of their faith. There would’ve been no crowd of mourners to witness the great miracle. There would’ve been no resurrection to astound the Jewish community.
If Jesus had responded when the sisters first called, the greater would’ve been sacrificed for what they thought was best.
I think it is ok to have a moment(s) of disappointment. I just don’t think we can live there forever.
I think it’s ok to tell God how you feel. He can handle it.
I told God I was disappointed. I shared with him my concerns. He listened. He understood. Then He spoke to my heart, assuring me that He had not forgotten, nor forsaken me, and even in this time of great disappointment, He is still at work and that I just need to TRUST.
The key my friends, to keeping the faith in the face of our disappointments, is simply trusting that despite our situation, that God is still at work. When it all seems lost, or life seems unfair, God still has a plan—and the power to fulfill that plan in ways we could have never imagined.
I do not know why God has allowed this virus to invade every inch of our life, nor do I know how it has affected your life or what your personal disappointment is. But this is what I do know….God still sits on the throne, He still calls the shots, and He is still in control.
On behalf of all of here at Right Turn Ministries, it is our prayer that if you too, are in a season of disappointment, whatever that may look like, we pray that God will bring to you soul restoration, healing, peace, provision, and hope where there was nothing but disappointment and despair.
As a ministry, we still face mountains too big for us to climb and valleys too deep for the light to reach, but we know that our God is a good, All the time. He is faithful and true, He will come through—maybe not the way we expect or hope, but always in a way that allows His glory and power to shine through.